祸哉,我灭亡了。因为我是嘴唇不洁的人。(赛六5)
我来到神面前,我并没有意识到我在某种意义上是一个罪人;我意识到罪恶集中在我生活的某个特定方面。人可以很容易地说:“是的,我是个罪人。”但当他一旦来到神面前,就不能凭这句话轻轻逃过去。那知罪的意念会集中在——“我这个不是,那个不对。”人来到神面前总有这个标记。罪的意识不会模糊不清,一定是集中在个人的某一些事上。神起初总是藉圣灵指控我们心中的某一件事,我们若在这件事上承认自己有罪,他便把我们引进下面更大的罪根性区域。我们若是在神面前,他总是这样对付我们。
这个把罪恶集中的经历,不论在最伟大的圣徒或最渺小的罪人身上,都毫无分别。在这经历第一级阶梯上的人会说:“我不知过错何在,但神的灵必会指出我在哪一件事上犯了错。”以赛亚看见圣洁的神,他就察觉自己是嘴唇不洁的人。“将炭沾我的口说,看哪,这炭沾了你的嘴,你的罪孽便除掉,你的罪恶就赦免了。”洁净的火必要施于罪恶集中之处。
祈祷◆主啊,愿你的纯洁渗透我们的思想、身体和感情;让我们完全认知和迅速彰显你那活泼而使人充满生气的作为。愿你那丰富的能力,进入我们的生活中。
July 3: The Concentration Of Personal Sin
“Woe is me! for I am undone; because I am a man of unclean lips.” Isaiah 6:5
When I get into the presence of God, I do not realize that I am a sinner in an indefinite sense; I realize the concentration of sin in a particular feature of my life. A man will say easily – ‘Oh, yes, I know I am a sinner’; but when he gets into the presence of God he cannot get off with that statement. The conviction is concentrated on – I am this, or that, or the other. This is always the sign that a man or woman is in the presence of God. There is never any vague sense of sin, but the concentration of sin in some personal particular. God begins by convicting us of the one thing fixed on in the mind that is prompted by His Spirit; if we will yield to His conviction on that point, He will lead us down to the great disposition of sin underneath. That is the way God always deals with us when we are consciously in His presence.
This experience of the concentration of sin is true in the greatest and the least of saints as well as in the greatest and the least of sinners. When a man is on the first rung of the ladder of experience, he may say – I do not know where I have gone wrong; but the Spirit of God will point out some particular definite thing. The effect of the vision of the holiness of the Lord on Isaiah was to bring home to him that he was a man of unclean lips. “And he laid it upon my mouth, and said Lo, this hath touched thy lips; and thine iniquity is taken away, and thy sin purged.” The cleansing fire had to be applied where the sin had been concentrated.