看哪,仆人的眼睛怎样望主人的手……我们的眼睛也照样望耶和华我们的 神……(诗一二三2)
这节经文是对神完全信赖的描写。仆人的眼如何注视主人,我们的眼也同样仰望神,以致对他的容貌认识日增(赛五十三1)。我们一不仰望神,就产生属灵的泄漏。这泄漏不是由于外在的烦恼,而是在于我们有这样的幻想:“我想自己伸展得太用力了,用脚尖站立,努力像神,而不作一个谦卑平凡人。”要知道并没有太过竭力这一回事。
例如:你因着为神站起来而面临危机,且你有圣灵的印证,一切都是对的。可是几个星期过去了,也许几年过去了,你慢慢地有这样的结论——“好吧,我是不是过分自负吗?我所作的是不是太‘过火’吗?”你那些理性的朋友过来说:“别傻啦,你当时说起那个属灵醒觉,我们就看出是一时的冲动,你受不起那种压力的,神也不期望你这样做。”你就会说:“这个,我想自己的期望也太高了。”听来多谦卑,可是对神的信赖已尽失,开始信赖世界的见解。你不再仰赖神,不再抬头注视他,这就是危机。惟有等到神突然把你停住,你才晓得自己是在倒退。所以,一发现有泄漏,就该立即补救。要承认在你与神之间有了阻隔,并且要立刻去调整。
祈祷◆噢,主啊,我在举止和行为上何等缓慢地表现神仁慈的恩典!你的美誉何时才为着你的荣耀临到我身上?
November 24: Direction Of Aspiration
“Behold, as the eyes of servants look unto the hand of their masters . . . so our eyes wait upon the Lord our God.” Psalm 123:2
This verse is a description of entire reliance upon God. Just as the eyes of the servant are riveted on his master, so our eyes are up unto God and our knowledge of His countenance is gained (cf. Isaiah 53:1. R.V). Spiritual leakage begins when we cease to lift up our eyes unto Him. The leakage comes not so much through trouble on the outside as in the imagination; when we begin to say – “I expect I have been stretching myself a bit too much, standing on tiptoe and trying to look like God in stead of being an ordinary humble person.” We have to realize that no effort can be too high.
For instance, you came to a crisis when you made a stand for God and had the witness of the Spirit that all was right, but the weeks have gone by, and the years maybe, and you are slowly coming to the conclusion – ‘Well, after all, was I not a bit too pretentious? Was I not taking a stand a bit too high?’ Your rational friends come and say – Don’t be a fool, we knew when you talked about this spiritual awakening, that it was a passing impulse, you can’t keep up the strain, God does not expect you to. And you say – Well, I suppose I was expecting too much. It sounds humble to say it, but it means that reliance on God has gone and reliance on worldly opinion has come in. The danger is lest no longer relying on God you ignore the lifting up of your eyes to Him. Only when God brings you to a sudden halt, will you realize how you have been losing out. Whenever there is a leakage, remedy it immediately. Recognize that something has been coming between you and God, and get it readjusted at once.